Memories of fostering

CIMG0756Anyone who follows me on Facebook and Twitter knows at one time I fostered a Siberian husky puppy for my son’s former girlfriend.  Why did I do this?  Well the obvious reason is I am stupid.  But I like to think of it as an investment in my future.  Or as I constantly told my son, “remember this when its time to pick out the nursing home.”

I thought life would be fairly simple once Achilles came to stay with us.  After all, I’m at home all the time, I have a fenced back yard, I already have a dog, a long hair doxie named Cody.  So what’s the big deal? Well for one thing Achilles is the big deal.  He’s a snow-white Siberian husky who topped out at seventy pounds.  But he thought he was a doxie. So when he arrived, at five months old he was constantly getting stuck under the bed and tried to lay on the back of the couch.  He also shed.  Big time.  White fur on wood floors.  Not a pretty sight. One time my neighbor asked me if a rabbit had died in our yard. I didn’t factor in all the extra work he would make for me.

And did he ever.  My office is upstairs over the garage.  I got plenty of exercise going up and down the stairs because he howled.  I want in.  I want out.  I want food.  I want water.  I want to play.  I want to walk.  I just want to howl because I like too.  Huskies don’t bark.  They talk. And the entire neighborhood heard it.  It’s hard to concentrate when you are constantly being interrupted by a dog.

Then there was the rampant destruction.  Actually I was keeping a journal of what he destroyed at the time but he ate it.  Off the top of my head he ate a leather ottoman, a pottery barn rug that I bought to cover the big stain he made on our bedroom carpet, three pairs of my husbands shoes, the insides of my uggs, the corner off our stairs, my daytimer, books, and an entire pan of brownies.  (yes I know the dangers of dogs and chocolate and that was a sleepless night)  Also my husband’s softball glove, my wallet the day before I had a flight, and the ottoman that matched my living room furniture. We also had to get rid of a room size rug due to stinkiness and we have a big crack in our ceiling in the kitchen from the day he decided to have a romp around the attic.  CIMG0604

He was a full time job.  Just like having a child.  My entire life revolved around this dog.  Trips were a big deal because I couldn’t leave him alone for a long time.  Boarding was expensive.  I have to make sure doors were closed and stuff was out of his reach and he’s got a big reach.  No counter or table was safe.  I’ve had to replace our back door.  My porch furniture was ruined.  Our back yard has no grass.  My house, which was only two years old at the time was a disaster but there was no need to fix anything until he left, after 15 months when my son and Achilles owner broke up.

Needless to say my writing suffered.  Big time.  I was up and down 100 times a day.  I got really frustrated because our house was no longer the way I wanted it. There were times when I screamed and cried. But today, when I look back, I know I did a good thing, because the alternative at the time was for Achilles to live his life on the end of a rope.

It’s been over three years since Achilles left.  And I still miss him.  I miss our walks.  I miss the way he looked at me with his beautiful blue eyes.  Eyes that say I love you.  I appreciate how you take care of me.  I miss how he watched through the window when I would leave and how he watched for me to come home.  I miss dropping my hand down to touch him when he laid next to the couch while I watched TV.  I miss how he would lie on the floor in my office as I wrote and dreamed about his next meal, which was probably the sofa.

Fostering Achilles was an adventure and a learning experience.  One I will never forget because he will always have a place in my heart.  I think about him often, and yes our neighbors still talk about him.  But I know he’s well loved and always will be.  I was a small part of his life.  As he will always be a part of mine.

Wonderful Wednesday with Ellie James

A Dog Named Molly

I remember the day vividly, every single detail. It was two weeks before Christmas. My husband and I had been married a little over a year. A few months before we’d bought our first house. That evening we were going to a Christmas party at a co-workers house, and I wanted to bring a poinsettia as a hostess-gift. I went to the nursery. They were having an Adopt-A-Pet in their parking lot. I remember the familiar tightening of my throat and chest, the gush of emotion at seeing all those furry friends without a home for the holidays.

I was a cat person. I’d always been a cat person. I had two at home. I knew nothing about dogs. That’s why I went to say hello to the canines, because my heart bled for all things feline, and I wanted to say hi, but I didn’t want to fall in love, and I didn’t want to hurt when I walked away.

The dogs were in cages, probably ten to twelve of them. I walked along and greeted them, finally coming to stand before a lanky black lab with huge, chocolate eyes. Melting chocolate eyes. Eyes that melted right into me. I remember standing there stunned, feeling this incredible rush go through me–and confusion. I didn’t like dogs!! They barked and licked, you know? But I stood there with this invisible lightning bolt flaring between me and this beautiful svelte lab who wouldn’t stop staring at me. A volunteer came over and asked if I wanted her to let Molly out of her cage. Molly. She had a name. For some reason I said yes. At least I think I did. I must have. But I don’t remember. All I remember is the door swinging open, and the dog venturing out. Coming for me. Maybe I tensed. I don’t remember that either. All I know is that she–Molly– came right up to me, stood on her back legs, and wrapped her front paws around my waist. She hugged me. This dog, this dog who I’d said hello to because I didn’t want to feel anything, hugged me. I can still see her face against my chest, her eyes staring up at me. And I can still feel the warmth that swelled through me.

I don’t remember much after that. I think I bought the poinsettia, but maybe I didn’t. The next thing I remember was walking inside the house and finding my husband, going up to him and wrapping my arms around his waist, taking a deep breath, then asking him a question we’d never talked about before: Honey, can we get a dog?

That’s how it all started. Molly came home with us, and we became a family. She was part lab, part Border Collie, all love, all smiles.

At the time my husband and I were struggling to have a baby, and as months stacked up into years, I’d find myself looking into Molly’s liquid eyes, at the love and wisdom shining back at me, as if she was telling me it’s okay, everything’s going to be okay. She was there for us during too many dark days, always greeting us with a smile, a hug, venturing out into the yard to play ball or Frisbee, or maybe just snuggling up with us when we needed so desperately to hold onto something.

Then she was gone. It happened way too soon, way too fast, without one shred of warning. One morning she was her happy wiggly loving self. That evening, when my husband got home from work, he found her in the backyard. She’d died suddenly at some point during the day, alone. We didn’t know why or how. We still don’t. All we knew was that she left us as suddenly as she joined us, and that there were these huge, awful holes in our hearts and our lives. We were devastated. Inconsolable. Didn’t have a clue what to do. Friends suggested we adopt another dog, but we didn’t want another dog. We wanted Molly. Our dog. Our angel.

A few months went by. Two, to be exact. It was Christmastime again, and I stumbled across an Adopt-A-Pet again. The memories hit so hard, and they hurt. I told myself to steer clear. Molly wasn’t there. But…I walked over anyway, and started to cry. And as I cried, I went down on my knees to greet the dogs who were there. Who did need a friend. And that’s how it started.

A few weeks later we brought two young pups home, a brother and a sister we named Bonnie and Clyde. Bonnie resembled a shaggy German Shepherd, whereas Clyde looked more lab. And as we loved on these little babies and gave them a home, I sometimes would have sworn Molly was sitting beside me, smiling that smile of hers.

But we didn’t stop with Bonnie and Clyde. They were actually the beginning. That spring a friend asked if we could foster a young dog named Rusty for the rescue group she worked with. We said yes. Rusty was with us for three weeks. And when he left, we said we’d be happy to foster another dog. So we did.

On and on it went, Bonnie and Clyde sharing their yard with a wide variety of hobo dogs, from Marge the over-bred cocker who came one weekend and stayed for over six months before she found her forever family, including several late night visits to the emergency clinic to ward off infections, to the little shaggy dog who came to us along with her seven newborn puppies.

Lola, we called her, and the name still makes us laugh. And holy cow did those seven little puppies poop a lot. And to this day I’d swear they each had a different dad. There was a little Chihuahua looking one, two shit-zhus, a bulldog, a lab, you name it. We called them Linus and Snoopy and Bertha, Princes and Zeus and Fluffball. And Duke. They all found homes, even Lola.

Then our daughter came along, and Bonnie and Clyde grew older. Then came our son, at the same time we said goodbye to Bonnie. Then a year later, Clyde.

Last spring we began fostering again, a little lab pup named Lexie, who ignited the dog-fever in our daughter. A few weeks later we brought another girl home, a little Great Pyrenees (believe it or not, they do start out little, for all of about a week!) Pink became Roxie, and she’s now over 85 pounds, and a very permanent part of our family.

Life goes in crazy ways, but we come to realize goodbye is only a temporary thing, something physical. Spirit lives on. Love lives on. Some of us are here, in the flesh. Others exist in the heart. It’s all real.

I think about them a lot, Bonnie and Clyde and Marge, Lola and her seven pups,
Rusty and Lexie and Roxie, and so many others who called our backyard home for a short time. And then I think of Molly, my sweet little angel, and I know that although her time with us was brief, her legacy is forever. Because of her, a dog named Molly, countless others have found their way to forever homes ☺

I know now she wasn’t a dog. She was an angel. My angel. My Molly.

About Ellie James

Ellie James is the author of the Midnight Dragonfly books, a new series about a teenage psychic, dreams that terrify, and secrets with the power to heal, and destroy. Most people who know Ellie think she’s your nice, ordinary average wife and mom of two kids. They see someone who does all that normal stuff, like grocery shopping, walking the dogs, going to baseball games, and somehow always forgetting to get the house cleaned and laundry done.

What they don’t know is that more often than, Ellie is somewhere far, far away, in an extraordinary world, deeply embroiled in solving a riddle or puzzle or crime, testing the limits of possibility, exploring the unexplained, and holding her breath while two people fall in love.

Regardless of which world Ellie is in, her story worlds or the real world, she loves rain and wind and thunder and lightning, the first warm kiss of spring and the first cool whisper of fall, family, friends and animals, dreams, happy endings, and…chocolate chip cookies.

You can follow Ellie on Facebook at: https://www.facebook.com/pages/Midnight-Dragonfly-Books-by-Ellie-James/154988421236309

Her next book, BROKEN ILLUSIONS, will be available from Griffin Teen May 8, 2012.

Wonderful Wednesday with Michelle Cunnah

A Tale of Two Kittehs by Michelle Cunnah
My children both refer fondly to me as The Borg Mothership. Apparently because I assimilate both people and pets, and also because once I have decided to assimilate Resistance is Futile. ☺ But in a good kind of way, so they assure me. Here is the story of how I assimilated two elderly, lovely kitties.
Years ago when we lived in America I got a telephone call from a good friend. She was very upset about something and wasn’t sure what she could do. A family she was acquainted with was moving out of the area. In their basement lived their elderly cat. Their elderly cat who had health problems. They couldn’t remember how old she was but thought that she was “about twelve.” They weren’t sure what health problems she had, either, but she did have damage to one of her ears in the form of a large, dry blood blister. Probably from being attacked by their dog, they thought. Anyway, they could not take the elderly kitty with them because their new house didn’t have a basement, so it was euthanasia time for the old cat if they couldn’t find her a new home before they left in two days’ time. Also, they had a dog that didn’t get on with cats. Oh, and also because they had a new kitten. Go figure.
My good friend couldn’t take the old cat because she already had a lively cat and three very exuberant dogs of her own. This old basement cat was very skitty and shy, and although my friend is one of the kindest, loveliest people ever to humans and other animals, this cat would not thrive in her home. What was she to do? I wasn’t sure what to do, either, but my heart went out to the poor old cat.
Later that evening I had a scheduled telephone conversation with my husband, Oh Patient One (as I fondly refer to him), who was on a business trip to India at the time. After I told him the tale of the poor old cat, this is what happened.
Oh Patient One (without the slightest hesitation): “Michelle, tomorrow morning you are going to go and collect that kitty and bring her home with you.”
Me (because I worry about everything): “Even though she’s old and will probably need medical attention more-or-less straight away? It could cost us quite a bit.”
Oh Patient One: “Yes. And don’t even think about what might happen in five years’ time when we have to leave America. She’s an old kitty, she might not even be with us by then so don’t borrow trouble and worry about transporting her on a plane back to Europe or horrendous quarantine laws or anything.”
He knows me so well, thought I, breathing a huge sigh of relief.
Oh Patient One: “And by the way, I already have a new name for this poor kitty. Dolores, because it sounds like she’s had a bad time and it’s derived from the Latin for pain or grief.”
A perfect name for her.
The next day it broke my heart when I first saw Dolores on her old sofa in the basement. What a pretty calico cat she was. Although she was shy, she was so pleased to be stroked and petted by my friend and myself, so thrilled to be getting attention that she was soon purring loudly. She wasn’t so thrilled when we put her into the pet carrier. Judging from her piteous cries she must have been terrified. My heart broke all over again for causing her anxiety. But once we’d gotten her home and shown her the kitty litter tray and her food and water, she was soon investigating my house. Mainly, it has to be said, investigating any area that was behind a sofa or a piece of furniture. Anywhere she could hide, really.
A couple days later she was settling in quite nicely. Although she didn’t like to be approached, if we crouched and held out a hand to her she would sometimes come to us to be stroked and told what a lovely kitty she was. She was so shy, though, that she wouldn’t even come through to the kitchen if I opened a can of tuna, or if I was carving a chicken. Although I know that it’s not good for cats to eat human food, a little chicken or tuna now and then was surely something she should expect? It didn’t seem right that she didn’t think she deserved a little treat. But don’t worry, we soon changed all of that.
A short while later she had us all eating out of the palm of her paw. She had her particular sofa where she liked to sit at the front of my dining room. A cheerful, sunny spot. She really became attached to this sofa (possibly because she’d lived on a sofa in a basement previously?) So much so that she didn’t really want to sit anywhere else. She would come and seek me out and yowl at me, transmitting her cat ESP vibes my way, because she wanted me to come and sit with her on her sofa. And if I opened a can of tuna or carved a chicken, it wouldn’t be long before Dolly transmitted cat ESP vibes at me for her share of the treat.
Soon we adjusted her name from Dolores to Empress Dolly of Cunnah, because she certainly wasn’t suffering pain or grief. And she was certainly regal with her six claws on each paw—an Anne Boleyn of cats.
Dolly was with us for four years. At the age of about eighteen her diabetes became really serious despite our best efforts with daily insulin injections and making sure that her diet was correct. I asked the vet for his honest advice about her situation, and he told me that it would be cruel to make her suffer. He put her to sleep I held her in my arms.
Here is Dolly on her sofa.
Fast forward several years. Last year my dear mum died unexpectedly while Oh Patient One and I were at our Rotterdam apartment. By the time I got to my mum’s house in the UK my sister and her best friend were already there, and the one question that they were worried about amidst the grief of losing Mum, the first thing they said to me once we’d hugged was, “What are we going to do with Mum’s kitty, Michelle? We can’t take Pippa because she’s so tiny and shy and elderly and our two cats would have her for breakfast. Can you take her? We’ll pay for everything you need, and if she needs to see a vet we’ll pay for that, too.”
Of course, Oh Patient One and I had already had this discussion on the long journey back to the UK and yes, I fully intended to take Pippa back to our house near London. And no, Oh Patient One and I would pay for anything Pippa needed. We knew what to expect with a twelve-year-old kitty, but it was lovely of my sister and her friend to worry about the money.
The car journey from my mum’s house to our house in the UK took about five hours. Although my sister had managed to get a kitty chill pill into Pippa she still managed to cry piteously for most of the journey. It broke our hearts all over again, reinforcing our grief for Mum. Pippa was our last connection to Mum and would Pippa suffer from separation anxiety and die, too? Mum had rescued Pippa when she was two, she’d had a decade of loving Mum.
But we needn’t have worried. Pippa was wary of her new home at first, but over the course of the last year she has basically taken over the whole household and we are all her kitty slaves. She has become Kitteh Princess Pippa who thinks that she is two years old rather than her actual thirteen years. She taps my face to wake me in the morning as she sends me kitty ESP vibes to feed her. If I am working on my laptop and she wants attention, she will either climb up on the bureau behind me and tap my shoulder, or climb onto my chair behind me and jump up against my shoulders with both paws. She climbs my trellis like a pro. She catches birds, too, so it’s fortunate that she doesn’t have enough teeth to kill them. From the way she stretches up towards the back door handle when she wants to go out, Oh Patient One and I are convinced that she is working on evolving an opposable thumb claw.
As I type this Oh Patient One and I are in our Rotterdam apartment for a few days. My daughter, Borg Sector R, called me yesterday from our UK house. And after we’d had a good chat (even though I saw two days ago), this is what she said to me.
Borg Sector R: “Borg Mother Ship, Kitteh Princess Pippa is missing you. I’m pretty sure she knows I am on the phone to you because she’s doing that funny tapping thing with her paw.”
Me: “Can you put the phone to her ear so that I can talk to her?”
Borg Sector R (without missing a beat): “Absolutely.” And then, a few moments later, “Mum, she’s purring at you—can you hear her?”
Me (with a smile): “Yes, I can.”
Michelle Cunnah writes romanticMichelle
comedies and teen fiction for
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Princess Pippa, and Other Things
Designed to Thwart Michelle,
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